This gathering of autobiographical essays focuses on different experiences and periods of the author's life and hybrid identity: a childhood spent in Austria, teenage years in an American school and then a lycee in France, coming to the U.S. as a young adult and attending college, studying in England for two years, and then settling permanently in the U.S. into an academic career. The word "essay" in the title is meant in its original or French sense, as an attempt or trial. The twenty-four items in this gathering are a kaleidoscopic collection of such attempts at different modes of self-reflexivity. They are arranged not so much in the chronological order of their composition as by way of loosely assembled thematic clusters. "True lies" suggests that by transforming lived experiences into language--by way of memory, imagination, and reflection--and often years and decades later, we inevitably alter them as we write them down. But we also re-experience them, and in so doing shift them into another register. These recollections cover a wide range of experiences: Stelzig's early years, his absurd encounter with a barber in Salzburg, his mysterious Buddha experience in Hong Kong, his travel misadventure in Spain, his career as an aspiring poet, his commitment to teaching Shakespeare's plays, his love of dogs and of tennis, and the death of a nineteen-year old Austrian au pair girl. True Lies is divided into three parts. "Austrian Roots" addresses Stelzig's early years, including his relationship with his Austrian parents. "Adult Branchings" focuses on his American adult life and identity. The final section, "Falling Leaves," is for the most part a set of reflections on the later stages of life and the sense of mortality and of time running out-the challenge of "being in time" and the question of "what remains."
Eugene Stelzig is Emeritus Distinguished Teaching Professor of English at SUNY Geneseo.
Preface Acknowledgments Part I: Austrian Roots Chapter 1: True Lies: The Barber of Salzburg Chapter 2: Viktor Chapter 3: Bipolar: Mater Melancholia Chapter 4: Tennis Lessons Chapter 5: Scrip Chapter 6: Remembering Dieta Part II: Adult Branchings Chapter 7: What Goes Around, or My Suitcase Fiasco in Spain Chapter 8: My Buddha Experience Chapter 9: Loving and Losing Dogs Chapter 10: My Obscure Career as an Aspiring Poet Chapter 11: Archetypal Dreams Chapter 12: Vespa Dreams Chapter 13: Rereading Old Books Chapter 14: Reflections on Visiting Weimar and Buchenwald Chapter 15: Suicide on the Mind: My Life Preserver III: Falling Leaves and What Remains Chapter 16: Timepieces Chapter 17: Being in Time Chapter 18: Autumn Leaves Chapter 19: Time's Relativity Chapter 20: The Inevitable Tipping Point of Mortality Chapter 21: Reading Obituaries Chapter 22: What Remains: Paying Rent on the Dead Chapter 23: "Shakespeare and No End": My Long, Imaginative Relationship with the Stratford Bard Chapter 24: Reading Letters from College Friends in These Pandemic Times Index About the Author
