The Lamentations

Patrick Anderson is professor in the Departments of Communication, Ethnic Studies, and Critical Gender Studies at the University of California, San Diego, and a 2023 Guggenheim Fellow. His previous books include Violence Performed: Local Roots and Global Routes of Conflict (Pal- grave, 2009), So Much Wasted: Hunger, Performance, and the Morbidity of Resistance (Duke, 2010), and Autobiography of a Disease (Routledge, 2017).

Prologue 1 I. Introitus 13 i. Office of the dead (Officium defunctorum) 14 ii. All flesh (Omnis caro) 19 iii. And he shall be like a tree (Et erit tamquam lignum) 26 II. Dies Irae 31 III. Kyrie Eleison 51 i. Sorrowful is my soul (Tristis est anima mea) 52 ii. What am I, miserable, then to say? (Quid sum miser tunc dicturus?) 58 iii. My soul is weary with my life (Taedet animam meam vitae meae) 70 IV. Lacrimosa 75 V. Offertorium 93 i. Through the tombs (Per sepulcra) 94 ii. Seeking me, you sat down wearily (Quaerens me sedisti lassus) 96 iii. Let not the abyss swallow them, lest they fall into obscurity (Ne absorbeat eas tartarus, ne cadant in obscurum) 101 VI. Sanctus 108 i. I kneel with submissive heart (Oro supplex et acclinis) 109 ii. Great trembling there will be (Quantus tremor est futurus) 111 iii. Hail, true body (Ave verum corpus) 128 VII. Benedictus 132 i. Death has struck (Mors stupebit) 133 ii. May the martyrs greet you at your arrival (Adventu suscipiant te martyres) 142 VIII. Agnus Dei 155 IX. Libera Me 174 i. A heart reduced to ashes (Cor contritum quasi cinis) 175 ii. When from the dust shall rise (Qua resurget ex favilla) 183 iii. That which is hidden will appear (Quidquid latet apparebit) 196 X. In Paradisum 199 i. Eternal light (Lux aeterna) 200 ii. Perpetual light (Lux perpetua) 207 Coda 217 Acknowledgments 225 Notes 229 Bibliography 243 Index 255

At once elegy and love letter to his dearly departed, The Lamentations bears witness to the suffering of those who have passed by their own hand and the paradox of queer becoming through the emptiness of loss. Anderson is a philosopher-poet illuminating the intertwined nature of queer death and emergence.---David L. Eng, University of Pennsylvania Patrick Anderson's The Lamentations: A Requiem for Queer Suicide is incredibly moving, beautifully written, and important in its documenting of the persistent narrative trope of queer suicide. It offers a timely history of the present in a moment of increasing violence against LGBTQ+ people. I was frequently moved to tears by the many stories Anderson gathers here and the tender analysis of the mundane aspects of loss. I know others will be moved as well.---Lisa Diedrich, Professor of Women's, Gender, and Sexuality Studies at Stony Brook University and the author of the books Illness Politics and Hashtag Activism, Indirect Action, and Treatments What do we owe our queer dead? Patrick Anderson's The Lamentations gifts us with a map to understand how queer loss through suicide is not just an act of individual volition. With every story of queer loss that we lament we must consider how another ending would have been possible were it not for the social, political, and institutional structures that have demanded that queer suicide be understood as an "honorable thing." Helping us break free from "the archetype of queer suicide," as Anderson elegantly calls this dishonorable killer logic, The Lamentations provides the framework from and through which we might envision queer repair and redress with ethical precision. In this stunning and elegantly written book, Anderson serves as our Doula, confronting what it means to care for the memory of our queer dead and how their stories survive beyond their disembodiment in the everyday of our embodied lives. Structured as a secular requiem--a composition to honor the dead--The Lamentations is a meditation about how to do justice for the queer dead who came before through ethical, emotional, and embodied repair.---Lazaro Lima, author of Being Brown: Sonia Sotomayor and the Latino Question, The Latino Body: Crisis Identities in American and Literary and Cultural Memory, and co-editor with Felice Picano of Ambientes: New Queer Latino Writing. Through poetic and poignant prose Patrick Anderson fingers the trace of loved ones whose ghosts haunt the pages recounting their passing. This book is a reckoning, a coming to terms with what it means to queer suicide and in that queer(y)ing examine the depth of loss left in its wake. The Lamentations is, indeed, an archive of queer mourning.---E. Patrick Johnson, author of Honeypot: Black Queer Women Who Love Women