Introduction
Part I: How Did It Get This Bad?
Chapter 1: The Seeds Were There
Chapter 2: This Belonging Is Brought to You by Absolut
Chapter 3: What I Didnt Say
Interlude: Grief
Part II: Try, Try, and Try Again
Chapter 4: Chasing Sobriety, Fleeing Reality
Chapter 5: When "Bad Enough" Becomes Enough
Interlude: Denial
Chapter 6: The Rooms That Didnt Hold Me
Chapter 7: One Headstand Away from Enlightenment (or the ER)
Chapter 8: When the Pink Cloud Fades
Interlude: Anger
Chapter 9: What We Carry Forward
Chapter 10: Confronting Family and Other Cultural Narratives
Chapter 11: You Dont Have to Fall Apart to Change Your Life
Chapter 12: AA and Me: Its Complicated
Interlude: Bargaining
Part III: Living In Sobriety
Chapter 13: Cocktails, Community, and Conformity
Chapter 14: Sober Sex, Consent, and Relearning Desire
Chapter 15: Finding My Stride
Chapter 16: Building a Life You Want to Stay For
Interlude: Depression
Chapter 17: Brain Change and New Mental Scaffolding
Chapter 18: Complicated Language and Tough Conversations
Interlude: Acceptance
Chapter 19: Embracing a Sober Identity
Chapter 20: Beyond the Instagram Filter
Chapter 21: Long-Term Sobriety in a World On Fire
The Afterparty Blueprint--30/60/90 Days
Epilogue
Resources
Acknowledgments